Mike, 20, average. I like quite a lot of things so i'll keep it nice and simple. Music, my band, my friends, gaming, cartoons and the pub. This blog will be full of seemingly random things, but hey, that's just my life.
I swear i'll sort this theme out...one day.
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A new Bayside song called “Hate Me” has made its way online through a music video by a band called Caraboo. You can stream the song below after the jump.
Bayside, Four Year Strong, Daylight, Mixtapes Spring Tour
Heard a lot about Attack on Titan, lets see what all the fuss is about.
I really want a pet Fox, they look bloody adorable.
So I’m feeling pretty shitty right now, currently sat at work on shift. I have so many things going through my mind I thought this would be a good way to get it all out.
I guess I’ll start with this one. After explaining to the girl I’ve had feelings for since June, that I did in fact have strong feelings for her (again), I got shot down and emotionally crippled (again, I really do not learn). She still talks to me, but she’s so hard to understand.
But this has left me in a hard place, especially with my work. I work in security, mainly nights , so my sleeping doesn’t really have a stable pattern. I’ve been up since 8am this morning, its now 12:30am, I finish at 6am. Bored and my mind has wondered, and found itself back to her.
I’m exhausted, depressed and most dangerously, bored. I feel like dying inside, I have no reason to be awake yet here I am at work.
I’ve lost control of my life and it’s taking its toll on me, mentally. I’m not able to have conversations anymore without drifting off or not being able to understand them.
To make things worse it feels like my friends have abandoned me. No one wants to do anything. No one cares or replies to my messages. I feel so alone.
This is torture. When will I stop feeling like this. I want to be able to sleep, wake up and not be annoyed at the fact I’m actually awake.
I want my life back.